in 2 weeks i will possibly be faced with a new title, and start work in the place i have convinced myself i want to be at. with much trepidation if i may add.

a bit lost, too scared to admit to anyone else that what i don't know is far greater than what i have scraped together in my 3 years of "see one do one teach one" working experience. dare not start reading, for fear of being engulfed in a million and one textbooks and my own stupidity.

the stress is making me space out, lose sleep and hair but never any weight. and the worst part is, i believe i brought this upon myself. kill me now.