Thursday, October 27, 2005

split screen sadness

holiday plans have suddenly displaced everything and disturbed the nice equilibrium i had envisioned for the next big break. i want to get off this freaking small island. but i want to drive and spend christmas in singapore. and arghh stop this guilting me. (oh dear bad english) i want to sit on a wall and sulk :(

enough about shitty stuff and driving. congrats to the recent passers, i am extremely jealous but touched that there are people nice enough to give me rides. yay good for us all :)

you know all this while i was trying to get his attention. but now that i've got it, i don't know what to do with it or maybe i don't want it. what if nothing happens. or what if something happens. or what if something happens and i regret. what if i find out he's replaceable, what if i find a better one, what if there is no better one but it's too late, what if there IS a better one but it's too late.

and then what?
dogs are the hardest animals to keep, or lose.
apart from humans.

i still wish you fought me till my dying day
don't let me get away
cos i can't wait to figure out what's wrong with me
so i can say this is the way that i used to be
there's no substitute for time
oh for the sadness

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