3 cheers for selffars!! and for the unfortunate fat cats too ;)
considering most of the team work in very inactive states, and are a year older (hence less healthy) than the steroidgirl and co. it's really something to be proud of. i am.
very fun day at taka square. i don't think it's officially called that but nvm. didn't get burnt, didn't cry or get drunk, did get very excited bitching about steroids etc. one very loud and many notsoloud "is he your boyfriend" questions - more people are questioning, but i am less in doubt of the final answer. argh, it's the old Emily Syndrome back to haunt me. sheesh. maybe it's just not the right moment. god probably knows what he's doing, cos if he doesn't, i'm kinda screwed up.
i think geography really does determine a friendship's lasting ability, at all stages of the friendship (i.e. new friends, old friends, best friends.. okay whatever, not enough stages to sound like a proper term) especially if you have different careers and sports and hobbies - though it's quite unlikely you'll be friends with people who have not a single common interest. time spent talking or just sitting quietly next to each other on the bus ride to/from, or the walk home helps bonding. of course if you make an effort though, Anything can be fixed.
thank you daph for brightening up my bus rides home :)
don't you think daph is pretty? she's so pretty!! heehee.
Saturday, April 30, 2005
Thursday, April 28, 2005
oh my darling, i love the way i fit snuggly in your arms/body, the warm and fuzzy feeling i get inside, and how i am never bored of sleeping with you. you have the perfect size shape and firmness, and the most comforting smell in the entire world. you are my (horizontal) pillar of strength and comfort, and my ever reliable confidante. thought i'd give my bed a little praise, since i spend a third of my life on top of it. i will miss it if i go away, and i can't decide which pillow to take with me >.< am lacking in confidence for next monday. help!
slowly appreciating all the good things in life makes me happy :)
tomorrow i will count more of my blessings. and tomorrow i swear to get up earlier, so that if i play on saturday i won't fall asleep halfway due to my ever screwed up sleep cycle. if i don't, then i won't fall asleep while cheering my babes on =p
lookit my darling! hrm, dun nag about the evil teletubby, or the pillow that looks like a giant viagra pill, or the fact that there's an impression of my head permanently etched into the big red pillow. notice how i am surprisingly neat when i sleep ;D
slowly appreciating all the good things in life makes me happy :)
tomorrow i will count more of my blessings. and tomorrow i swear to get up earlier, so that if i play on saturday i won't fall asleep halfway due to my ever screwed up sleep cycle. if i don't, then i won't fall asleep while cheering my babes on =p
lookit my darling! hrm, dun nag about the evil teletubby, or the pillow that looks like a giant viagra pill, or the fact that there's an impression of my head permanently etched into the big red pillow. notice how i am surprisingly neat when i sleep ;D
Monday, April 25, 2005
bitch, the verb
instead of feeling angry, i am now saddened by the fact that takuya kimura is being displaced by my rantings. gah. sorry sau :*(
lesson #1: don't bitch about people in front of their friends. i don't have to learn this lesson, but some people do. it's not so much the content of the bitching, but rather the circumstances that peeve me. that's fine, i'm fine for now, because daryl and hon and hl love me *smiles*
lesson #2: don't walk too much after binging on thai food, you will get tired =) duh. ivan and mag are hilarious, and i love people who love to eat, and share good food. i love hon. we (hon and i) very gung-ho-ly walked all the way from holland v to 6th ave, me with 2 jackets and hon and her big bag and box, talking nonsense and the opposite of the opposite of nonsense (bleargh stupid psychometric test)
lesson #1: don't bitch about people in front of their friends. i don't have to learn this lesson, but some people do. it's not so much the content of the bitching, but rather the circumstances that peeve me. that's fine, i'm fine for now, because daryl and hon and hl love me *smiles*
lesson #2: don't walk too much after binging on thai food, you will get tired =) duh. ivan and mag are hilarious, and i love people who love to eat, and share good food. i love hon. we (hon and i) very gung-ho-ly walked all the way from holland v to 6th ave, me with 2 jackets and hon and her big bag and box, talking nonsense and the opposite of the opposite of nonsense (bleargh stupid psychometric test)
Sunday, April 24, 2005
Saturday, April 23, 2005
ode to jap guys, and betty crocker
now only jap guys - with the exception of exceptionally cute smustudent interviewer who looks like a rugger and whose smile made my day. wait he may just be jap too so nvm - make me so happy!! heehee i am high, again. on air, and pictures of shuai jap guys. they aren't particularly hot, but people like takuya kimura make me smile the Whole Entire day. he's veryvery cute and charismatic :D
daryl and i had fun just bumming the Entire day. baked chocolate fudge brownies, then shengxiang's drugged bday cake, and only after nicely (though reluctantly) cutting out half of the brownie batch for people we'll meet on sunday, did we gobble up everything. also watched hero and long vacation... thank goodness these vcds never fell into my hands during the As. i cannot stop thinking about my heavenly jap guys ;p
jap guys. takuya kimura, hideaki takizawa, yutaka takenouchi, takeshi kaneshiro. heehee. i have a poster exactly like the first photo, from a kind-hearted zhui, hanging in my room - it looks a bit like a shrine, though it really isn't! i am so happy. jap guys, i love you, come marry me ;) okay whatever so i'm mad, but really have you seen them!! okay look i had a lot of trouble deciding so i decided to just post tenthousand instead of 1.
he is Gorgeous. i know why ili watches the show on channel u, even though it's in jap/chinese. i know why i don't really get the show, cos all i notice is him. this is worse than my 172 crisis! possibly
that's takuyakimura doing strange things. i kinda like guys who look delicious when they're blur, sleeping, eating, stoning, and scolding people. mainly cos in real life, that's what people do! noone actually poses for hours a day, except poseurs =p okay enough. off to dream of him!
ps. sorry no pictures of the cake/brownies cos it's all *gasp* gone!!
daryl and i had fun just bumming the Entire day. baked chocolate fudge brownies, then shengxiang's drugged bday cake, and only after nicely (though reluctantly) cutting out half of the brownie batch for people we'll meet on sunday, did we gobble up everything. also watched hero and long vacation... thank goodness these vcds never fell into my hands during the As. i cannot stop thinking about my heavenly jap guys ;p
jap guys. takuya kimura, hideaki takizawa, yutaka takenouchi, takeshi kaneshiro. heehee. i have a poster exactly like the first photo, from a kind-hearted zhui, hanging in my room - it looks a bit like a shrine, though it really isn't! i am so happy. jap guys, i love you, come marry me ;) okay whatever so i'm mad, but really have you seen them!! okay look i had a lot of trouble deciding so i decided to just post tenthousand instead of 1.
he is Gorgeous. i know why ili watches the show on channel u, even though it's in jap/chinese. i know why i don't really get the show, cos all i notice is him. this is worse than my 172 crisis! possibly
that's takuyakimura doing strange things. i kinda like guys who look delicious when they're blur, sleeping, eating, stoning, and scolding people. mainly cos in real life, that's what people do! noone actually poses for hours a day, except poseurs =p okay enough. off to dream of him!
ps. sorry no pictures of the cake/brownies cos it's all *gasp* gone!!
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
hero
strange day of missing appointments. first i forgot to cancel my theory prac+evaluation at bbdc, then i overslept and forgot i woke up =p actually the correct chronological order was the oversleeping, then remembering that i forgot to cancel the lesson. then jo didn't come, so me and yun entertained ourselves eating like pigs and watching hero. unfortunately for ilai, the vcds are all with chinese subtitles only =/
after yun left i had tonnes of fun in my kitchen, making watermelon juice (a very pathetic attempt because in the end i realised the chopper was a left-handed chopper, which kinda explains why it took me really long to halve the damn thing) and digging up cool recipes from "the great rgs cookbook" if i go overseas, i must take it with me! stomach is aching from the sheer amount of food i've gobbled down. heehee my apply crumble is fantastic =)
bah, despite tonnes of advice from tonnes of wise people, seniors juniors teachers coaches and well meaning friends, i can't decide! nvm more people are having it worse than me, so i will count my blessings. my parents are mostly fine with whatever i decide, i think. just all up to fate, if i believe in it. it's such a tiring job, thinking =p
"lunchtime sms convo excerpt:
emily: Yeah i read your blog, linked from yl's from ili's. Haha the guy sounds cute!
sixuan: the lifeguards? they are 40 yr old indo uncles.
emily: HAHA. Chey. Lifeguards are supposed to be cute so that you can drown and when they save you you can fall in love hahaha.
sixuan: which reminds me.. i haven't seen cute guys for a long time already.. "
cai makes me laugh. so does philip. hello there :)
after yun left i had tonnes of fun in my kitchen, making watermelon juice (a very pathetic attempt because in the end i realised the chopper was a left-handed chopper, which kinda explains why it took me really long to halve the damn thing) and digging up cool recipes from "the great rgs cookbook" if i go overseas, i must take it with me! stomach is aching from the sheer amount of food i've gobbled down. heehee my apply crumble is fantastic =)
bah, despite tonnes of advice from tonnes of wise people, seniors juniors teachers coaches and well meaning friends, i can't decide! nvm more people are having it worse than me, so i will count my blessings. my parents are mostly fine with whatever i decide, i think. just all up to fate, if i believe in it. it's such a tiring job, thinking =p
"lunchtime sms convo excerpt:
emily: Yeah i read your blog, linked from yl's from ili's. Haha the guy sounds cute!
sixuan: the lifeguards? they are 40 yr old indo uncles.
emily: HAHA. Chey. Lifeguards are supposed to be cute so that you can drown and when they save you you can fall in love hahaha.
sixuan: which reminds me.. i haven't seen cute guys for a long time already.. "
cai makes me laugh. so does philip. hello there :)
Monday, April 18, 2005
madness
hmm, now that i'm sober, i can tell you everything about singapore sevens, from my short perspective =p
the day started at 12plus, with the jc 7s nationals, which was funny in the sense that all around us were supporters of every school beside rj. good seats indeed, it seemed that throughout the day we were fated to support teams no one else in our area supported haha. met sauyee and her sister who is surprisingly white (if you have never seen sau, she not white; she is tanned, and beautiful)
the sun was scorching and whit and weekeat and philip came to sit next to me. the guys bought beer whee~* a lesson learnt is that warm beer doesn't taste very good, but drinking one jug by yourself will kill you, so you must buy one jug, hurry share with your friends then proceed to buy more jugs and carry on drinking in the same fashion to ensure cold beer and maximum satisfaction.
rugby is really very cool, cos it's very fast paced and there's continuity which is important to keep me interested, since i suspect i have attention deficit disorder. the players are fantastic and they're so good at tackling, passing, creating and running through gaps and of course scoring. everyone looks so good cos they're very skilled!! i can't for the life of me fathom why the rest of singapore isn't enthusiastic about it =(
i had a good view of my number 7 so i'm not complaining about the stadium not being filled to the max- he got sent to the sin bin and i heard many girls getting upset, but still glad cos his face was immediately shown on the big screen ;) -though i must gripe about the smoking. rain or shine, there are people puffing away. LUNG CANCER, HELLO! hmm but i've grown used to it, and with alcohol in my blood, i don't suppose i'd mind anything. oh yes, i am a fan of alcohol. the buzz is quite nice since i've nothing else to make me happy (i.e. sweet boyfriends, top unis begging me to go, med scholarships are kinda non-existent) heehee so we took pictures, jumped around, danced and sang to the singable songs, comparatively tamer than some other ppl around us. tabi kept telling me to shuddup cos the moment i opened my mouth, i was just uttering rubbish. kinda true, but i do that everyday, don't i =p i'm very happy i went for sevens, will definitely drag more people next time
hmm, i'm still high and crazy over rugby. this is the one sport i've taken a liking to that is fun to watch and fun to play, that has gotten me so high so crazy so many times before (recall many other posts gushing about it) okay i'm going to rj to play street and get my portfolio in order
the day started at 12plus, with the jc 7s nationals, which was funny in the sense that all around us were supporters of every school beside rj. good seats indeed, it seemed that throughout the day we were fated to support teams no one else in our area supported haha. met sauyee and her sister who is surprisingly white (if you have never seen sau, she not white; she is tanned, and beautiful)
the sun was scorching and whit and weekeat and philip came to sit next to me. the guys bought beer whee~* a lesson learnt is that warm beer doesn't taste very good, but drinking one jug by yourself will kill you, so you must buy one jug, hurry share with your friends then proceed to buy more jugs and carry on drinking in the same fashion to ensure cold beer and maximum satisfaction.
rugby is really very cool, cos it's very fast paced and there's continuity which is important to keep me interested, since i suspect i have attention deficit disorder. the players are fantastic and they're so good at tackling, passing, creating and running through gaps and of course scoring. everyone looks so good cos they're very skilled!! i can't for the life of me fathom why the rest of singapore isn't enthusiastic about it =(
i had a good view of my number 7 so i'm not complaining about the stadium not being filled to the max- he got sent to the sin bin and i heard many girls getting upset, but still glad cos his face was immediately shown on the big screen ;) -though i must gripe about the smoking. rain or shine, there are people puffing away. LUNG CANCER, HELLO! hmm but i've grown used to it, and with alcohol in my blood, i don't suppose i'd mind anything. oh yes, i am a fan of alcohol. the buzz is quite nice since i've nothing else to make me happy (i.e. sweet boyfriends, top unis begging me to go, med scholarships are kinda non-existent) heehee so we took pictures, jumped around, danced and sang to the singable songs, comparatively tamer than some other ppl around us. tabi kept telling me to shuddup cos the moment i opened my mouth, i was just uttering rubbish. kinda true, but i do that everyday, don't i =p i'm very happy i went for sevens, will definitely drag more people next time
hmm, i'm still high and crazy over rugby. this is the one sport i've taken a liking to that is fun to watch and fun to play, that has gotten me so high so crazy so many times before (recall many other posts gushing about it) okay i'm going to rj to play street and get my portfolio in order
Sunday, April 17, 2005
redness
i have red hair!! but it's only temporary, and how long it'll remain depends on my scrubbing abilities.
sevens was a blast :D
all blacks rock!! especially my number 7 whom i didn't really think did much, but looks damn cute so he's forgiven =)
okay i'm going to do more hair washing. =p
sevens was a blast :D
all blacks rock!! especially my number 7 whom i didn't really think did much, but looks damn cute so he's forgiven =)
okay i'm going to do more hair washing. =p
Saturday, April 16, 2005
nemo
as i have complained to a lot of people, i look like nemo now =( i have sun burnt kneecaps and forearms, on top of my whole entire face facing the prospect of peeling skin gah. so much to gush about! sevens was quite an adventure, with plastic heineken pitchers, the temperamental weather, irritating boys and shuai ruggers ;) heehee more on that tmr.
Friday, April 15, 2005
chocolate fountain please
wah after a disappointing afternoon of non-rugbyness, i had the most glorious dinner. it wasn't because of the ambience, or the price (definitely not the price) it was because of the myriad of yummylicious food, all for your binging pleasure. theline at shangri-la doesn't cost as much as fullerton's buffet, and is pretty funky with the orange lightings and slightly retro waitress/waiter uniforms. they have people making crepes, satay, sashimi/sushi, pasta, grilled seafood, all kinds of noodles etc. but the best part was the chocolate fountain. mmmmmm ;) oh and then there's a really pretty vera wang dress on display in the wedding shop next to the restaurant. it's so pretty, but that'll have to wait a long while more.
hmm, had a fun time at chinese high attending the nyps sports day this morning with fiona and honhon - everyone thought i was hon's kid sister or something, a bit weird. kids are quite cute these days, and girls are somehow so chio!! argh sound paedophilic.
gonna wake up early (which means before my usual bummy time of 10 - 1130) at 8++ to go watch women's rugby at padang. come and watch! singapore won all their matches today, which means they're in the finals. woo, go singapore :) realise i've been rugbymadness-ing since yesterday's street touch session. yay i'm so glad i found rugby. will talk more after 7s i guess. so sleepy from all the eating... goodnight!
hmm, had a fun time at chinese high attending the nyps sports day this morning with fiona and honhon - everyone thought i was hon's kid sister or something, a bit weird. kids are quite cute these days, and girls are somehow so chio!! argh sound paedophilic.
gonna wake up early (which means before my usual bummy time of 10 - 1130) at 8++ to go watch women's rugby at padang. come and watch! singapore won all their matches today, which means they're in the finals. woo, go singapore :) realise i've been rugbymadness-ing since yesterday's street touch session. yay i'm so glad i found rugby. will talk more after 7s i guess. so sleepy from all the eating... goodnight!
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
my family
who declared the 12th of april 412 day?
i declare the 12th AND 13th of april 412 days, since we're so great! :D
and err... since i forgot about it till the last minute of the day =p anyway, enough crapping, i love you girls. here's to another year of fun and laughter and may we all find ourselves waking up to dreams that came true (not nightmares, you know what i mean) i no longer think of us as a class, now we're good friends who've been there for each other, and who happen to have the same set of funky teachers and come from one wonderful class. in commemoration of the bonds made, i've got photos! look under 412 adventures. thanks for walking with me through life, it's a long journey and i know i'm never alone :)
*anyone got photos of sec4 days? i so want one of kai sleeping.
i declare the 12th AND 13th of april 412 days, since we're so great! :D
and err... since i forgot about it till the last minute of the day =p anyway, enough crapping, i love you girls. here's to another year of fun and laughter and may we all find ourselves waking up to dreams that came true (not nightmares, you know what i mean) i no longer think of us as a class, now we're good friends who've been there for each other, and who happen to have the same set of funky teachers and come from one wonderful class. in commemoration of the bonds made, i've got photos! look under 412 adventures. thanks for walking with me through life, it's a long journey and i know i'm never alone :)
*anyone got photos of sec4 days? i so want one of kai sleeping.
Sunday, April 10, 2005
sunday morning
phone conversations are. interesting. food love sex, and height ;)
am a big fat liar, enough said
before that had an Interesting one with someone who was feeling oily =p
first time i've been so honest about everything. liberating-ness
if you like someone trulymadlydeeply enough, wouldn't you tell her/him? do you Honestly think that by having someone tell you first, it would make your feelings clearer? do you think that by spending half a life time with someone you vaguely know, you will grow to like him/her?
truth be told, that's bullshit, and i'm never going to buy it. because i have hope in romance and guys having balls. because there's still something i have to prove to myself, and i think i only have one shot at it. fuck off and don't tell me to not be humji.
so i may have a Panglossian view of life, but. i think you are a coward. but that's what i think - that's a moo point so nvm.
*haha ili i used it! =p
am a big fat liar, enough said
before that had an Interesting one with someone who was feeling oily =p
first time i've been so honest about everything. liberating-ness
if you like someone trulymadlydeeply enough, wouldn't you tell her/him? do you Honestly think that by having someone tell you first, it would make your feelings clearer? do you think that by spending half a life time with someone you vaguely know, you will grow to like him/her?
truth be told, that's bullshit, and i'm never going to buy it. because i have hope in romance and guys having balls. because there's still something i have to prove to myself, and i think i only have one shot at it. fuck off and don't tell me to not be humji.
so i may have a Panglossian view of life, but. i think you are a coward. but that's what i think - that's a moo point so nvm.
*haha ili i used it! =p
Friday, April 08, 2005
weddings
i'm a big sucker for romantic comedies with weddings as a backdrop. there's bound to be romance, drama and comedy for the ultimate feel good movie =p
just don't want to end up as julia roberts in my best friend's wedding. she didn't get the guy, she got a gay. love that movie to death, but i sure don't want my life to be like hers, though she's got my dream job [food critic] and she got to kiss dermot mulroney. hmm i must gush about him!! he looks so suave and his voice is soooo mesmerising. and the way he hugs the lead actress is just really so... enviable. his strength, warmth and sincerity shone through and made me cry like a goon. bah.
argh. i must be getting lonely =/ come on, who on earth gives such nice hugs?! it's humanly impossible to find such a perfect gentleman. except for maybe hon's jon. HAHA. whatever.
hmm let's see, besides the usual (i.e. funny spontaneous intelligent and mature) these are musts.
1. decently deep/low voice
2. big warm body and strong arms - to sweep me off my feet/hug me when i'm sad
3. great dancer! (i can't dance for nuts)
4. mussable hair ;) no armyhaircut or don't-touch-my-head nonsense, and please, no more wax.
5. gorgeous eyes that see only me! [my dream list, leave me alone.]
6. must love dogs!
just don't want to end up as julia roberts in my best friend's wedding. she didn't get the guy, she got a gay. love that movie to death, but i sure don't want my life to be like hers, though she's got my dream job [food critic] and she got to kiss dermot mulroney. hmm i must gush about him!! he looks so suave and his voice is soooo mesmerising. and the way he hugs the lead actress is just really so... enviable. his strength, warmth and sincerity shone through and made me cry like a goon. bah.
argh. i must be getting lonely =/ come on, who on earth gives such nice hugs?! it's humanly impossible to find such a perfect gentleman. except for maybe hon's jon. HAHA. whatever.
hmm let's see, besides the usual (i.e. funny spontaneous intelligent and mature) these are musts.
1. decently deep/low voice
2. big warm body and strong arms - to sweep me off my feet/hug me when i'm sad
3. great dancer! (i can't dance for nuts)
4. mussable hair ;) no armyhaircut or don't-touch-my-head nonsense, and please, no more wax.
5. gorgeous eyes that see only me! [my dream list, leave me alone.]
6. must love dogs!
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
swingswing
1. disaster of a golf lesson, fingers still gnarled and cramped up. and i Hate wearing my mum's shoes. but, it felt good whacking ball after ball after ball ;) more intensive ball whacking tmr yay!!
2. met ivan early in the morning, and trudged up the hill to get to the business school only to wait an hourplus before the interview. i felt really super smart after that =) qotd "___ is known for their many cute girls and cmi guys, as is the rest of singapore actually"
3. went too late to sign up for anything at jitterbugs and we kinda abandoned the mission after reading that bachata involved "naughty hip movements" O_o
4. mwahaha i want more chocolate cake. warm chocolate cake suddenly sounds... wrong =p
5. testing my patience, also testing my ability to be a good friend this time round. it's only human nature to get sick of hearing the same things everyday, especially if it really doesn't make a difference any more. of course, what else are friends for.
6. ma'am said i was too easy going. yeah, maybe. so weird to have her comment on me. but i (and jo) also say i'm v stubborn. so which is it?
7. unemployment is pretty boring if you can't find activities, and if your friends are all employed. i pity the first taitai in the world =p had to turn down job offer from mr gn, or rather his mum. gah, would've liked to work - it's gotta be better than rotting my brain.
8. woohoo last minute change of plans are quite exciting. daryl makes me laugh (and feel fat, but that's a different story) yay momiji babes on saturday :D
2. met ivan early in the morning, and trudged up the hill to get to the business school only to wait an hourplus before the interview. i felt really super smart after that =) qotd "___ is known for their many cute girls and cmi guys, as is the rest of singapore actually"
3. went too late to sign up for anything at jitterbugs and we kinda abandoned the mission after reading that bachata involved "naughty hip movements" O_o
4. mwahaha i want more chocolate cake. warm chocolate cake suddenly sounds... wrong =p
5. testing my patience, also testing my ability to be a good friend this time round. it's only human nature to get sick of hearing the same things everyday, especially if it really doesn't make a difference any more. of course, what else are friends for.
6. ma'am said i was too easy going. yeah, maybe. so weird to have her comment on me. but i (and jo) also say i'm v stubborn. so which is it?
7. unemployment is pretty boring if you can't find activities, and if your friends are all employed. i pity the first taitai in the world =p had to turn down job offer from mr gn, or rather his mum. gah, would've liked to work - it's gotta be better than rotting my brain.
8. woohoo last minute change of plans are quite exciting. daryl makes me laugh (and feel fat, but that's a different story) yay momiji babes on saturday :D
Sunday, April 03, 2005
one without a permanent scar
i don't remember the days i loved you
i don't remember the day i stopped loving you
i remember that night i didn't like you
and i hate myself, and i hate you
phone call till 230 last night/this morning. yes, things would've been mightily different had i waited a day, but what's over is over and i'm sure it's gonna lead to something magical. sooner or later. sooner please? can only hope anyway. do you think i'm incredibly stupid? any smart person would've told him to just forget her, but NO being the fix-it-all i am (haha) i just had to give him good advice. not just this time but many others before, that i'll be kicking myself for in no time. hm, do we really need a boyfriend to feel happy? please don't go around thinking you're incomplete without one. he's only called "the other half" cos they've been called that since ages ago; in reality girls can do just fine independent of that half. no i'm no man-hater, quite the contrary. but i need to comfort myself for now :)
by the way, i feel like such a fool. telling the whole entire world (save for one friend) one thing, thinking the complete opposite. shudder in self-disgust at the lie, even worse than meaningless words are hypocritical ones =/
the pope died this morning, while i was sleeping like a pig. i'm a bit sad cos i'm sure he was a pretty fine person of character who had so much influence. he reprimanded presidents and yet was humble enough to visit the poorest places on earth. can't wait for a cardinal conclave! erps too much dan brown =p tomorrow seems like a packed schedule. lunchwithjo, netballcourt touch, meetinghon. woo. can't imagine the day when my schedule will be summed up in one word - work. eeyurgh, don't want >_<
i don't remember the day i stopped loving you
i remember that night i didn't like you
and i hate myself, and i hate you
phone call till 230 last night/this morning. yes, things would've been mightily different had i waited a day, but what's over is over and i'm sure it's gonna lead to something magical. sooner or later. sooner please? can only hope anyway. do you think i'm incredibly stupid? any smart person would've told him to just forget her, but NO being the fix-it-all i am (haha) i just had to give him good advice. not just this time but many others before, that i'll be kicking myself for in no time. hm, do we really need a boyfriend to feel happy? please don't go around thinking you're incomplete without one. he's only called "the other half" cos they've been called that since ages ago; in reality girls can do just fine independent of that half. no i'm no man-hater, quite the contrary. but i need to comfort myself for now :)
by the way, i feel like such a fool. telling the whole entire world (save for one friend) one thing, thinking the complete opposite. shudder in self-disgust at the lie, even worse than meaningless words are hypocritical ones =/
the pope died this morning, while i was sleeping like a pig. i'm a bit sad cos i'm sure he was a pretty fine person of character who had so much influence. he reprimanded presidents and yet was humble enough to visit the poorest places on earth. can't wait for a cardinal conclave! erps too much dan brown =p tomorrow seems like a packed schedule. lunchwithjo, netballcourt touch, meetinghon. woo. can't imagine the day when my schedule will be summed up in one word - work. eeyurgh, don't want >_<
Saturday, April 02, 2005
fishies
for the record i caught more fish than amos and no one fell into the pond :D
fun day of general bumming and pigging out yesterday. started with me oversleeping. oversleeping what? oh i was planning to wake up real early and drop by jo's office to give her the piece of sinful sinful (remember?) chocolate cake before she came to work. but i woke up at 1130 no thanks to my magic time travel bed that changes 8 hours of sleep to well, more than that =p
after much fussing and choosing, we picked out harry potter and *gasp* thunderbirds and rented the videos. ate up all the chips in my house (great feat, there's a Lot of chips in my house) played with my dogs and had an adventure fishing. most people would fish in drains or in the sea, but i went fishing in my pond out of sheer boredom and fascination at the myriad of colours shimmering on the surface. manymany guppies whee! :) well, just 4 guppies, 2 each in a bowl on the tv table and 1 unlucky tank on another table.
i think i like doing applications. it's such a transitionperiod kinda thing to be doing, in between graduating from jc and enrolling in a uni. very lightheaded about it =p and it makes me feel good because i'm occupied And i'm definitely not hearing about me being Rejected by anyone >.<
even so. i don't like This weightless floaty feeling now. because there's no real person in mind, no target, no ambition. so caught in the middle when there's nothing on either side. no idea whether this is based on competitive streak (somewhere deep down i'm sure) or a hunger for love and some kind of closeness. i miss being loved. hai.
fun day of general bumming and pigging out yesterday. started with me oversleeping. oversleeping what? oh i was planning to wake up real early and drop by jo's office to give her the piece of sinful sinful (remember?) chocolate cake before she came to work. but i woke up at 1130 no thanks to my magic time travel bed that changes 8 hours of sleep to well, more than that =p
after much fussing and choosing, we picked out harry potter and *gasp* thunderbirds and rented the videos. ate up all the chips in my house (great feat, there's a Lot of chips in my house) played with my dogs and had an adventure fishing. most people would fish in drains or in the sea, but i went fishing in my pond out of sheer boredom and fascination at the myriad of colours shimmering on the surface. manymany guppies whee! :) well, just 4 guppies, 2 each in a bowl on the tv table and 1 unlucky tank on another table.
i think i like doing applications. it's such a transitionperiod kinda thing to be doing, in between graduating from jc and enrolling in a uni. very lightheaded about it =p and it makes me feel good because i'm occupied And i'm definitely not hearing about me being Rejected by anyone >.<
even so. i don't like This weightless floaty feeling now. because there's no real person in mind, no target, no ambition. so caught in the middle when there's nothing on either side. no idea whether this is based on competitive streak (somewhere deep down i'm sure) or a hunger for love and some kind of closeness. i miss being loved. hai.
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